I am still under construction but things have changed for the better, I haven’t had much time to write because I am one step closer to my dream of making my wonderful hobby a wonderful full-time job.
As I wrote last time in Prison of Mind I walked around talking to everyone from big banks to real estate agencies in hope of getting a chance, and so I did. I talked to an editor in a local newspaper in Oslo and got myself an internship. I work for free, but I don’t see it that way. I see a lot of opportunities and I am so grateful for this chance I have been given. There are so many great photographers out there, and the only way I see I can make my dream is to work harder and giving everything, and it will pay off in the end.
I am so happy with all the responsibilities I have been given, and to be part of the team. I am one of the admins for their Instagram account @vaartoslo, I also get to work on my own project and an article of portraying and interviewing people in the streets. I’m also taking photos for news articles which is something completely different from what I ever did before and I got to start with no other than the city mayor. I think I was the perfect amount of nervous and anxious. Meeting the mayor and politicians have never been something I have done much in the past. I always felt low self-esteem like I’m in the gutter, I wrote in The Observer of Life I never felt part of this world. So words can’t explain the feeling this chance I have now means to me.
It’s also a great way to learn so much more about photography, challenging myself every day. Taking portraits is new to me. I love street photography and shooting situations and capturing moments that occur in everyday life is fun, but walking up to strangers asking to take their photo and telling them where to stand, and at the same time try to capture their personalities and getting them relaxed an off guard is a totally different story! The first day I went out I didn’t know how I would approach or what to say, but I didn’t care about the photos where good or not, it was just practicing getting turned down and just keep going. I have asked many people before and taken their photos, but of the situation not them, their eyes and soul straight into the camera. It’s something very personal and I want to do a good job and make them feel good. I had a great time!
As I am writing this, and eating breakfast I’m at the same time itching to get back out, I have spotted some locations I want to try and can’t wait to shoot more! Tomorrow I will cover a demonstration and a marking of building a new culture house. So a lot going on these days. Contrary to what my life used to be some years ago. Instead of waking up terrified and exhausted before my eyes where even open. Exhausted before even getting out of the bed of all the hours I had to kill to get through the day. I now wake up with a smile and energy.
Many thanks to my love too, who have given me everything. She never stopped believing in me. She is so strong who has invested her time in me, and it’s not been easy for her in the beginning but she has she has shown me my strength and I will do everything to be the best man I can be for her. I love you, Nathalie!